Dispair!!!

Ive pretty much being going thro’ hell these past few months, it’s just been one thing after another. I slowly slipping into depression, my health is deteriorating, my studies are suffering, i’m going absolutely out of my mind. I used to be quite a religious person 2 well in the sense i really believed in prayer e.t.c. well that’s a far vry 4rm wht i am now. I’'m on teh brink of becoming a non-believer ( this scares me majorily) even though i thought my imaan was very strong i run a mile everytime i hear the mention of islam. Ive tried reading namaz but end up getting off the prayer mat after a minute. I just can’t bring myself to say any kind of dua! :teary:
I just feel let down by God, and c no pint of praying ever again.

I find life so depressing, i don’t find the point of it anymore, i wud rather it just finishes once and for all ( don’t worry i’m not gnna jump off a bridge) in other words all these worries one after the other with no end in sight of them, it’s suffocating.

I’m quite good at putting on a front so no body really knws how depressed i am ryt now,
I just dont knw wht to do?? if it was one problem or even a few i cud handle it. I thought i was a strong person, but i can;t deal with life anymore :frowning: I feel as though i can;t trust any1. If i can;t trust god anymore, if he lets me down so badly, wht can i expect from any human?
Everything is caving in on me :frowning:

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heres a hug for you tweety.....hang in there.

Best thing to do is make a list. List the top 5 things that are bothering you and for each one, list at least two things that would help to improve that item. Then follow it - like taking medicine.

You werent clear on the things that are troubling you but the above really does work. Please give it a try, think of things that make you happy and persue them even if you dont really feel like it.

And may the sun shine down upon you once again :)

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awww i hope Allah showers his blessings on you and help you out in this time as well as anybody else in your position Ameen very sad to hear or read.

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don't feel overwhelmed... like mama said, make a list and tackle things one by one. and if you need to, don't hesitate or be ashamed to seek help... there are lots of helplines you can call and lots of people you can talk to, to relieve yourself. i hope things get better for you soon IA! hang in there! and don't lose faith in God. He's always around and he's always listening.

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The problem is that the issues im facing i cannot tackle, family members beig ill, loosing my home, i was faced with being homeless for a while, evily relatives, friends turning on you, deaths, the list goes in. I think my greatest pitfall is the fact that i have lost my faith, but i c no way of regaining it either.

I knw there is reward for sabr, but i have none left, ive lost trust in ALLah majorily, every1 tells me to keep faith and for a while i day to myself that i have to try and regain it, but i dont knw, it sounds so bad to say i just feel so disgusted bby religion, i feel so let down,

I think ppl on GP are probably sic of hearing my complaints of my lack of faith, and my depression, i guess this is the only place where people will actually listen to wht im listen, every1 else i knw seems to mute out wht i need say :teary1:

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considering what you’ve went through, it’s absolutely understandable that you feel that way. sometimes you need something to shake your faith, to help you understand why in the world are you doing faith wise what you are doing. people have had much minor reasons to stop praying, but you have huge reasons.

first things first, and i’m going to hear a lot about this i know, if you don’t feel like praying, don’t force it. yes it’s a farz, but what’s the point of praying a namaz, of having a conversation with your lord almighty when you don’t have your heart in it? and Allah is understanding. He understands what is in your heart better than you do.

then, realize that there is always an up right after a down. And God puts us through terrible terrible tests. like someone told me, they are so tough sometimes, that you have no other option but to fall down on your knees and cry out to Him. So think of everything as a test. a really really tough test. and He wants to see how you do in your test. Who you turn to, what you do. And there is a good in everything that happens. Think about it, would you rather stay with your friends and family and not know the bad side of them, only to have them stab you in the back eventually? atleast you know their character now, and can find better people. money and health come and go, and now you are wiser about things, can prepare well for the future. you might not see it now, but you will eventually. So all of this, this is just a test. He puts everyone through tests, and our goal has to be to pass these tests with flying colors.

Turn to Him now, or tomorrow. it doesn’t matter, because He is always there, more than humans. Deal with your inner demons first of all. Why you don’t feel like praying. you said your faith is strong, it’s just being tested. So don’t worry about that. talk to someone right now. a person. get the help from anywhere. any person. (a good one ofcourse) the sooner you can let it out, the sooner you can get back. He hasn’t let you down, don’t feel that. It’s just his way of showing tough love.

:hugz:

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tweety

first of all no one here knows really how you feel or what you are going through, all we can do is relate to our own times of challenges and despair and give you some thoughts

my few pointers would be

1) remember everything is temporary, you had good times ua re going through a rough patch and better times will return
2) realize there are things that are in your control, somewhat in your control or not in your control at all. those that are not, you can pray but nothing else, those that are in your control or u can influence, work on them. what u cant tackle, dont tackle..
3) def def def seek counseling, i cant tell u how important it can be, it helps to talk thru things
4) decrease stressors in your life, fake friends, drop em, annoying family ppl, keep away.

for your sake, for your family's sake you need to take care of yourself, and do the best that you can do in the challenging circumstances, and that comes with taking care of yourself so u are in the right physical, mental and emotional state to face the challenges.

strength in numbers..., lean on others when u need, dont be an island.

just remember- this too shall pass.

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i can relate to some extent, InshAllah my prayers are with you :hugz:

May Allah give you Sabr for all bad things you’ve been through and bless you with happiness and faith, Ameen.

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tweety bird,
do not lose faith. be honest and truthful within yourself and to your loved ones. as a family, come together and attack back all that is disturbing your lives. make sure you do not discuss your personal business with people who you can not trust and who will only add to your strife.
have an open mind. be strong so that you can take care of what you have to. give support to your parents and your siblings. riches come and go. people come and go away too. but that does not mean that you become dejected.
have faith that a better time is on its way. declutter your life and do not allow inconvenience or temporary discomforts to create problem in your motivation to obtain a good position where from you will be able to enjoy convenience nd comfort.
focus on one thing at a time. within yourself, resolve to be self sufficient.
i hope and pray that things work out in your favor and may Allah swt take you out of all troubles, soon. amen.

Dushwari

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why is it that we can never be thankful for countless blessings we have instead of what we DONT have or get. i am assuming you have two eyes, two ears, sense of smell, taste. i am sure your body parts are working fine too. i am also assuming that you're educated or in the process of getting there, you're capable enough to work, make a living, support yourself and your family.

have you ever thought of people who don't have any of the above? there are millions, MILLIONS out there who are blind, deaf, handicapped in some way and yet many of them would not talk how you are right now. I have seen people living on streets with no food, no money and no help. they dig for food in the garbage to satisfy their hunger, sleep in freezing winter with no blanket or sweater. It's sad that a few temporary things are making you break down like this when there are so many people who are suffering from permanent torture such as loss of senses or body parts or mental disabilities.

why is it that all these blessings you are gifted with are not enough for you to be thankful and worship Allah swt but instead, you insist on distancing yourself from Him because of a few temporary things? Life is not easy, we all know it. Everyone has to encounter ***holes of relatives/people every now and then. Everyone has gone through their shares of ups and downs. Noone can understand your situation better than you but you need to sit down and realize what you're doing. But even then, nothing you say can justify you turning against your religion and against the creator who has blessed you with SO much. go out one day and meet some of those people. take a look at their life and reality will hit you, i can guarantee you that.

"In the Quran, Allah comforts us by continuously reassuring us that He desires for us ease not hardship, despite the seemingly formidable trials and tribulations that we may sometimes face. He says:[INDENT]*'God desires ease for you, and desires not hardship' *(2:185)

*'Truly with hardship comes ease' *(94: 6);

*'God will assuredly appoint, after difficulty; easiness' *(65:7);

*'Whoso fears God, God will appoint for him, of His command, easiness' *(65:4);

*'We shall speak to him, of our command, easiness' *(18:88);

*'God desires to lighten things for you, for the human being has been created weak' *(94:28).

To say, however, that Islam is easy and not 'difficult', is not to imply that Muslims will not face 'hardship'-and here the two terms must be distinguished. Indeed, although Islam is easy to understand and practice, the whole purpose of the trial is to make manifest the degree to which an individual is steadfast (and hence sincere) in his submission to Allah- and this is precisely what is indicated by the Quranic verse:

'And We will most certainly test you with something of fear and hunger, and loss of possessions and lives and crops'(2:155).

Notwithstanding these trials however, we can find ease in this world and the next. But, this will be so only if we are firm in our faith in Allah and follow the course prescribed by Islam, as He Himself has declared:

'But give good news to those who are patient, who, when a calamity strikes them, say: 'Indeed we belong to God and indeed to Him we shall be returning: They are those on whom are blessings from their Sustainer, and mercy-and those, they are the rightly-guided.(2: 155-157).

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I've not read through the rest of the thread - I just read your original post............so apologies if anything I say has been covered b4.

Right well.........Allah SWT sends us many tests (of faith and personal character) in many different ways...each and every test serves a purpose.

It is beyond us as mere mortals to understand the rationale behind the tests, so we must leave it to Allah SWT to do what is best for us and believ that whatever HE sends our way, there is some good in it for us.
Remember, that Allah SWT will not make us suffer unecessarily, he will put us through a bad phase so that we can achieve our good days.
In this way, we will Insha allah appreciate our blessings more and thank Allah SWT for these blessings.

Unfortunately, being mere mortals, we do often forget this and in our most dark days, we often speak and take actions without thought, this doesn't necessarily make you a bad person.......but it does mean that it may take you longer to accept your fate and the reasons behind the tests from Allah.

Nobody is perfect, and it takes a person with VERY strong imaan to not deviate from the path of Islam....................
In the western society especially, muslims in times of need turn instantly to doctors, lawyers, counsellors, friends for solutions as a matter of course. Just think in doing these things how many namaaz are lost, made kaza and even forgotten. Of course seek professional help, but don't forget the hiqamat that these professionals have has been granted by none other than Allah SWT.

But Allah SWT is all forgiving................all you have to do is accept (that you're going through a bad phase which is TEMPORARY), ask (for the almighty's help in helping you through this all the while making your imaan stronger) and have faith (that Allah SWT will "pull all the strings he can" to make things better for you)

It seems flippant of me to say this, but if we all led perfect lives, whereby we were given all we needed, shed no tears, had no hardships............we wouldn't believe in anything and we'd lead boring lives.

Remember also, that Allah SWT is not only forgiving but is the judge of all, so evil relatives and bullying friends will be dealt with by HIM when he sees fit. Your sabr will be favoured by Allah SWT. And whilst you think you have no sabr left, remember that Allah SWT has made us very strong and you will be surprised at how much sabr you can have.

Please don't see this as me preaching........I'm not. I am also not a strictly religiious person (may Allah SWT forgive me) but I believe in Allah SWT first and foremost.............even if I don't say it with every breath, I know that HE and my imaan is in my heart all the time. If it hadn't been for this, I would never have come through everything that I have...................sometimes I do slip and think my life is being wasted because I have spent x years depressed because of what has happened, and then immediately feel it's a shame as Allah SWT will give me happiness when he see's fit............. so I HAVE effectively wasted time not enjoying my life and living it to it's fullest.

Even if you can't physically read namaaz...sit on the prayer mat.
If you can't make dua, 'talk' to Allah SWT as if you were talking to a person about your innermost feelings, desires and concerns (HE knows them anyway, but it's closure for you to accept that you recognise them)
Don't feel guilty for missing a namaaz, seek forgiveness from HIM.

Insha allah Allah SWT will continue to give you the utmost sabr and I hope that you begin to feel better soon.

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Never loose faith in Allah, dekhna sab theek ho jaayega, :k:

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Thanks every1 I knw i really do need to pull myself together.. I need to reinstate my faith , becos i knw that without it im not really gonna get very far, its gonna take a while but i have to give it a go, thnks again :)

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A lot of Zikr in free time, specially while travelling,...etc. ( Mainly Astaghfaar and Shukar of Allah(swt) along with Darood sharif and Surah Ikhlas)

Try giving benefit to people around you in any possible way you can. For example, giving a helping hand to mom in cooking, helping younger brother in home work, giving a choclate to a child, sharing an inspirational e-mail with friends and relatives....etc. Anything that can put a smile on a person's face.

Just keep yourself busy in activities that are beneficial (in this life and hereafter) to your future and that of others related to you.

Insha'Allah you would regain the motivation and energy in life.