Assume I have a problem that my father doesnt want me dating blacks, spanish, american, etc… i have to date desis, but i am not dating a desi guy, he is black. The reason why my father is like this its because he beleives every race should stick with their own,and i dont beleive in that i dont look at guys that i meet over colour its the personality.
If my family/parents found out i am dead im going to get kicked out and they wont accept me or my bf because he is black, im not trying to hurt my family but they have to realize that my bf he means the world to me he makes me happy, sweet, funny, caring, respectful, treats me so well,knows what he wants in life, easy to talk too, understanding, and loves me for me.
Last night me and my bf were talking and he was saying that when he looks at other people and their with there gf/bf kissing, cuddling etc… y cant that be us and im on the phone jsut thinkin to myself i cant do this anymore, so i told him i said to him i cant do this anymore, i want u to be happy with someone else that u can see, and not worry so much about my family, so when i was telling him that i was crying my eyes out because deep down inside i dont really want him to go, so he says to me you want me to move on and i said yes because i dont want to see u unhappy with me, he starts crying saying he wants to be with me, you make me happy, i cant lose u, i love u so much, i am going to kill myself,and to be honest i cant let him go its like something apart of me wants him in my life because without him i am not compelte and he makesme so happy, i feel so comforable around him its so hard not seeing him everyday, its hard having a family like this, we have been togehter for 2yrs n we only seen each other twice i know what your thinking y are u with him still, but its so hard i just cant leave him, its just something about him that i cant let go of i try my best but i just cant u know what i mean, like i tell him think postive, i promise u one day we are going to be together, we are going to get through this, we gotta try our best, we dont live that far its like only 20mins. Like i know him from when we went to school he was there for me and he was the shoulder i could lean on and he knew back then how my family was be he goes i dont care becaue i want to be with you and i said i cant but i did like him alot, but i didnt know he felt the same way so he told me and then look at us now.Its so hard you know the problem is the family because my sister start to question and she start saying mean things and they think i am this and that there always in my business like ia m almost 20 and they treat me like a child and they tell me what i gotta do with my life like i dont tell them what they gotta do you knw what i mean, i just dont wanna lose my man he means evrything i am crying while writing this to you i just need some advice what you think about the whole situation should i listen to my heart?
i want your honest opionion please… thank you for listening.
