You’re my darling one
The love of my life
Soon to be my wife
And I’m still falling deeper and deeper in love with you
As I discover and unravel your many layers
My days as a player are over
Retirement is looming
And as you smile at me I think of a rose blooming
I met many
But they pale in comparison
And vanish into insignificance
Coz no one compares to you
You’re unique and original
The real deal
Not a fake
But a true masterpiece
My heart aches being apart from you
I feel as if I’m being torn to pieces
I feel honoured and privileged Knowing u
And want to spend the rest of my life in your warm embrace
Close my eyes and drown in the feelings of ecstasy
As I moan your name over and over again
But a week later
The dream is over
And feelings are almost gone
And we’re both alone
As it was in the beginning
So it has become in the end
It was good while it lasted
But it went so fast
I still replay the moments in slow motion
And pause at certain parts
It felt good at the time
And I wish time stood still
But it doesn’t
The days come and go
Turn to weeks
Then months
And memories fade
But your memory will never fade
I’ll always remember the intimacy
And closeness
And pleasure we brought each other
Even when I’m with another lover
Coz nothing compares to you
U were the first to affect me this way
I wanted you to stay
But you had to say goodbye
To please those closest to you
Those whom you love and cherish
And hence our love perished and died
I’m not sad
Just glad that we met and became close
And you gave me up to please your family
You’re irresistible
I can’t live my life without you
But I must try and move forward
Coz there is no turning back
The past contains only grief and sadness
While the future may hold happiness and laughter
For you I had been praying
Dreaming
And searching
How was I to know?
That when I found you
You would leave so quickly?
Oh God only you can help me
I’m in denial
Life is a trial
And I’m in pain
I think of her 24/7
She’s always on my mind
She hurt me so bad
That she felt the pain
But I don’t hate her
I’m glad that it happened
Coz I got a taste of paradise
Which made us both more wiser
I’m scared when I’m with her
Coz old feelings always there
No matter how much I deny or try to hide it
But what am I supposed to do?
Only you my lord can guide me
Coz I am lost and confused
And walking around in a daze
My days are dark without her
Colour is gone
I only see things in black and white
And know that something is missing and not right
Author: Showkat Ali