Salamz
Yesterday, one of my best friend’s mother passed away in a plane crash.. As the word got around and finally came to me , I was shocked, devasted and in denial. Last night I could’nt sleep nor could I think right… It was as if I was in a surreal world and everyone around me was there but not there.. I have’nt witnessed a lot of deaths in my life time. 2 to be precise but this one was just as if something inside me hurt.
The question that came to mind and is still running in a loop and will continue for a long time or my life time is..
Death is closer to us then our shoe laces.. It closer to us then our own breath then still why dont we get it???
Why do we still do haram , treat people like chum change, every single day get involved in this materalistic so called awesome Duniya and forget about our own death.. Why?? have our hearts desynthesized to an extend that we dont feel anything anymore…What’s the matter with us…
Every single morning when I wake up and I pray to Allah(swt) and always say. YA Allah(swt) if I die today, I wanna die as a believer. But I am not doing enough? skipping prayers here and there.. Not reading Quran everyday. Always saying stuff and telling people to do this and that and not really doing it myself. Realizing it consiously but not getting where I wanna be…
Anyways.. my point is how many of us think about our own Death or have we completely Desynthesized??