This is about a girl who writes in her diary. The person who she refers to as “lojer” is actually her best friend but isn’t with her anymore.
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Dear Lojer…
eversince he found out about ma miscarriage, we never got along well..we had a fight every other day or so and ..ya..even the tiniest thing he did..would hurt me…
you cannot even imagine what happened to me..well… Now that i have recovered from that hideous memory, let me recall what happened that day…that day when i left ma house
and that day i had a surprise for HIm*..that day i wnated him to know that he will become a father…but this time..i didnot disrupt him during his work..so i waited ..i waited for an hour..because that was the longest i could wait…well when i called him..he was on his lunch hour..and so he told me to call back..as he was with his friends..he didnot even hear what i wnated to say… So i decided i will wait until he comes back home..
But as soon as he came back from work..i dont know what happened to him..But all i know is..his mood was off..he started calling me names first..without even telling me what ma fault was and then i said…“ma biggest mistake was to marry U”… and then he replied saying that his biggest mistake was that he fell in love with me…
yes i was hurt..yes i was crying…
but thats not all…he told me to leave./..he said …“if you think if it was yr biggest mistake then why dont u correct it by leaving this house..i wotn stop u this time”
and then i decided i should leave, as it will better for both of us..after that much humiliation it would ahve been a disgrace if i stayed dere. …and i was sure that he’ll bring me back as soon as his anger goes off..meanwhile he’ll have time to think that his behaviour was not appropriate.
and i have left ma diary there..that too on purpose..because it was somethign that belonged to me..and for some reason i thgt it would bring him back…
i gUess from now on i will write in this diary…!!
i was hoping that he’ll come one day ..either for me or either for him..but i knew somehow..that he would come…
DEar lojer ..
its been a month since i left ma house…and still he never came…he never came back for me..do u even know how much it hurts..to see the person who meant the world for u, leaving u like this.?..i guess i was wrong …he has changed now..and i dont think he’s ever coming back for me..
Dear Lojer..
OH i wanna die..
…i hate life…i have no purpose to live now…
DEar Lojer..
how cna i be so slefish..i cnat kill this baby..
i guess i have to live on my own now..i will find myself a job and then i will live …i have to live for my baby now…coz i have sumthing that he doesn’t have ..and he will realize it later after he is tired ..tired of his friends and business..
Dear lOjer
Oh my God..after like two months ..he came..yes he came…and i was so lost ..in his eyes..searching for the love i lost..but it was no where to be found…
he came to return ma diary..atleast my diary brought him here..but he never said anything…he didnt even bother asking me how i was…he just gave me ma diary back…and then he was like " i guess i’ll leave"…i wish he said somehting beside this..i wish he asked me "why dont i go home..i wish he asked me how i was..or anything..anything beside…this.ONe sentence…
i kept on staring at him..waiting for him to say sumthing..and i was like dying to make him stay…ii was dying to hear him utter something..coz his silence was killing me from inside…
i was praying in ma heart dat"oH Allah ..oh Allah.. plz make him stay..plz tell him to take me with him to my house.. to our house..and if not..atleast make him stay a little longer…"..
and just so that he stays…all i managed to say was "ahaan and what about the ba-by, umm u "..and then after dat ma voice started to shake..so i stopped..and i knew i was going to break apart any second now…and so i tried not to look straight in to his eyes..because this way i will not be able to control ma tears ..and then he’ll know..that i am still incomplete without him..
i didn’t want him to take me home just coz he felt sorry for me…nor did i want any sympathies from him…
i guess i was still living in ma dream world..coz he never stopped… he simply ignoredddddd me..and walked away..saying “7 more months”…i guess he already knew or maybe he was hurt too..or maybe he didn’t wanna talk about it…i guess i dont know..BUt All i knw is that he never stayed nor did he came back for me.
yeh tohalf bhi nahin hai 
