Re: Dealing with...
Sadaf.... your post made me cry for my mother all over again. She too was hardly 45, I was 22, and she died before I could even say goodbye. My husband never got to meet the most amazing woman I have ever known, and my children will never get see the one I loved the most.
new CoolDude... we all really feel for your loss. From those of us who've lost someone we loved dearly, I can tell you, cherish the moments you still have. I would give anything to spend one more day with my mother, tell her i love her one more time, even argue with her or tell her a joke, anything to just see her one more time. I know my mother is in a better place now. She sacrificed all her life for her family, and I know now she's in peace, watching over me. That in itself is perfect. I miss her, my heart cries for her, but her peace is greater than my need. The one you love, she's suffering now. Give her as much comfort and joy as you can. Don't regret that you didn't do enough while she was alive. Once she is gone, know that she'll be in peace, free from her pain, and in the end, that peace is more important than your need for her. My prayers with you both. Ameen.