Re: Crushes 
ha ha ha i knew i am gonna get this. yes diwana, i have enough exposure to adult/mature men and women. it is just none of these men are even close to my perfect ideal. and just because you are 24 (or older) doesn’t mean you don’t get those silly childish feelings once in a while.
i think it is painful because even though that adult/mature part of my brain knew i am never getting that person, but this stupid childish heart somehow sneak in a hope that i might miraculously get him somehow. but now when i know that his religious background is different, that hope died, and it hurts.
or we can conveniently call all this PMS 
but i don’t think they work 3 weeks ahead of their time