Re: Crush RXN
It happened to me....I got really shocked, angry and felt betrayed...I started to rethink every interaction and think maybe maine koi ghalti ki ho...or maybe I misled him some way. He apologized a lot to me and said he couldn't help it...and he just wanted to be honest...but I was soo upset. I felt like I lost a good friend and it would be forever awkward. And the worst thing was another girl who used to hang out with us found out and she started to accuse me of using her to cover our chakkar up. And that wasn't it at all...I promised her i didn't know but she wouldn't budge. I cried and cried cuz we were such a good group and then it got ruined.
Later on.....he left....and I missed him....then I was confused...thinkin 'what the hell is wrong with me? i hate him, right?'....but i knew it was pointless to say anything cuz i was only 20 and i thought it's either friendship or marriage. nothing in between. He came back to our city and he would just say 'salam' and formal sort of stuff...idk...i started to have tars on him and somehow i guess he seemed tolerable and not so gross anymore....one day he said he'll walk me to my car and guess who I saw? That girl who had accused me of using her as a coverup! Gosh...I wanted to die...she probably thought 'aha...dekho maine sahi kaha tha na...k inka chakkar chal raha tha?!' even though it wasn't!! she then wrote me a snide message saying that she had seen me very clearly..gosh abhi likh k bhi itni sharam aarahi hai...