^^ i'm same....i kept being strong especially for my lil sister, after mom death , cause she was only 8....but now, i realise, it makes the pain harder to bear....and like you i'm still crying after many years....
i think a good grieving and sharing of sadness, and emotions with others is better for future than, keeping all for oneself....
it pretty difficult.I remember a story a teacher once told me in college about a guy stranded in a jungle whos about to be eaten alive by a lion and there is a chocolate cake infront of him, he eats the cake eventhough he knows he is gonna die very soon.point being that one should'nt focus on the bad that has happened or will happen in your life so much that you stop living.
omg i cant even cry anymore, theres just this constant state of depression which i guess is normal. Sometimes i just gotta suck it up and make it through the day. Take it one day at a time
I don't think you ever completely get over a person's death. You just have to live with it. Crying helps and so does talking about your feelings or writing them down.