Have you ever thought or felt as if everything in your life is going bad. I really do have everything in my life going wrong...without dwelling into specific details I have academic, work, family, martial, social, legal, medical, financial and emotional issues. I feel like I have such a bad rep that I can?t function and I?ve posted about that before but now that I have all these other issues I can?t even function anymore. I don?t think I can handle anymore. I am blessed and do appreciate living in the west but I am having a hard time to overcome these issues. I?ve tried to talk to cousins and a friend and also a counselor but no one understands. I would never hurt myself but at this point everything I see or face is a challenge and I just want to have a fresh start but it?s easier said than done...I have too much baggage with me and I can never escape my past. At this point I feel like I?m waiting for certain death and I hate I feel this way. I?m not bragging but I had so much potential when I was young and now I feel that I threw that all away because of my short sightedness.
If you knew my name and asked about me, eventually you would find someone who knew me and would say awful things about me. I?ve done some lousy and stupid things in my past but it?s my past and people don?t seem to realize or understand that. I can?t blame people, and I hate to quote Scarface but society needs people like me to degrade. I?m the epitome of what not to be to others. I?m a representation of what it truly means to be a flaw, failure, and fallacy.