My problem is about recurrent onset of hopelessness and sort of anxiety. To start with I have been a socially secluded person since my childhood. I was in a prestigious** medical college of Pakistan** some yrs back, but left that incomplete, perhaps due to challenging studies of MBBS, notwithstanding the fact that rest of my colleagues were also doing their degree quite confidently. I had always a fear that I couldn't do my MBBS due to difficult courses. After that I did my private bachelors from Punjab University , and was motivated by my family to appear in competitive exam. I managed to qualify that exam, and happened to join civil service as an Assistant Commissioner of Income Tax. But here too I am sort of socially isolated, and mostly remain sad. One more thing which makes me depressed is that I used to like a girl too, who prepared for exam with me, and once she qualified, she has sort of forgotten me. I really feel broken and finished due to this this. One more thing which depresses me is my appearance and looks. I look way too younger than my age. People mistake me for some teenage school boy, whereas im 28 yrs grown man. This is what that so called lady friend of mine made me realize. I am way too depressed over these issues. I don't know what to do. My family is happy that i have been able to find a new career in civil service after my** failure at engineering**. But im still very depressed due to above mentioned issues. At times I feel like dying, and life seems like worse than hell.
first make up your mind, you were becoming a Doctor or an Engineer? these are quite different fields and require different subjects to qualify.
i think if one can get himself to MBBS, they are capable of finishing it off!
and now you are according to you passed one of the toughest exam in Pakistan a became bureaucrat, i dont think you would be suffering from any depression on this regard, as what you tried to do, you made it possible.
well if the issue is a girl or relationship that shouldnt be mixed up with career.