You didnt hurt me huni, And everything you said is true. I try my best not to contact him, but i fail im weak and i jus contact him again. I cant help it.
Mine is a love cum arranged marriage. Shukar Alhumdulillah I got married to someone I loved. So I have no idea how it feels if you cannot marry one you love.
But they way you have described the situation and think that he is cheating , his mom does not want you to get married to him etc. Isn't it time now you move on and let your family and Allah get you married to some , nice decent fellow from a decent family. There are plenty of them out there and Inshallah you will find one , who's family and him will love and take care of you and be proud of you as his wife and as their bahoo.