Salams ![]()
I’m going to be done with my computer science bachelor’s degree very soon inshallah.
The thing is…
I HATE computer science and all types of engineering and technical even business fields.
I always wanted to be a doctor since I was a little girl. In fact I always used to think I am never going to become an engineer. To this day I hate technical subjects, and biology had always been my favorite subject…
The programming classes and the math and stuff I had to take in college were a horrible ordeal I had to go through.
After completing A levels [high school] in Pakistan, I applied to all the med schools there and then I got admitted into a good college in America with a scholarship so I came here just because it seemed too big of an opportunity to pass up and I was always scared at the sight of blood so always had a tiny doubt in my mind about being a doctor.
When here, I realised it takes too long to do medicine in America. And then, being a Pakistani, what was the next option? Engineering…! So I settled for Computer Science…it wasn’t even that my parents made me…they always said do whatever you want…but me being the tees maar khan trying to be an over achiever ![]()
and it totally backfired ![]()
But recently, as I am closer to graduating, and reflect on my academic experience during my undergrad, I realise more and more that engineering and business type careers are not ME. I don’t like the stuff I hate every second of it. I hate coding, I hate all technical stuff and business and all that is not my cup of tea.
Anyone who meets me tells me I am not like an engineering major and I feel it in myself too that I wasn’t cut out to be an engineer or a business person…my friends also say that it would have suited my personality a lot better if i had been like paedetrician or family doctor or something…and i feel like that too…
sigh…
but no use crying over spilt milk…
I want to go into healthcare or children’s/ women’s issues…or social work…things like that…but not social activism. Peaceful slow easy and involved with the people you are dealing with type of work…
eventually i want to do social work among women, children and families in pakistan…
maybe even have a business on the side which employs poor women…if its for such a cause it wont be that bad i guess…
i also thought about field social work of the type where you have to stay in remote areas all the time and keep travelling a lot to spread education and awareness…but my extended family might not be too happy about that kind of a job cuz its not one of the most practical things for women to do in Pakistan…
so maybe i’ll join a social organisation to begin with and then go towards these things more…
i am totally not sure what to do ![]()
So…
Now…
that I’m almost done with my undergrad in Computer Science, I want to switch fields…
I know ppl tell me 'bohot jaldi khayal aa gya
'…but khayr…dayr aayay drust aayay innit ![]()
I want to do a masters in something that would take me more towards that field…but also don’t want to completely waste my undergrad…is that wanting too much btw?
So I’m hecka confused about what to do…
There are programs like medical instruments etc…but those too are toooooooooo technical for me…
I am just hecka confused about what to do next as I do want to get my masters inshallah, and my parents want me to…anywhere in the world is fine for masters, no restrictions at all alhamdulillah…my parents have always been really open to allowing me to do whatever i want …
and then after masters inshallah I want to go into this field in Pakistan…
hmm…so any of you got any advice, ideas, suggestions, thoughts for me? ![]()