My heart is not at peace. I feel like lost. feel anxious and annoyed all the time, procrastinate about little things. I dont feel like living anymore, feel very disappointed and hope less. Its been almost a year or may be more than year and I have tried few things. I cant even pray, while praying my mind goes in 1000 different directions, i feel agitated. Nothing interests me anymore, life feels meaning less, dont feel like living but suicide is the last thing on my mind. I feel like chained and need to escape. what could be wrong with me. I m desperate now. I want to be normal again.
Perhaps page 31 - 39 of PDF may help you find answer or I should say these pages may at least cover your questions in full and perhaps reading more will lead to answers.
http://www.alislam.org/library/books/Philosophy-of-Teachings-of-Islam.pdf
The pages are covering following subjects:
Three types of Human Actions
First Source - which incites to Evil
Second Source - the Reproving self
Third Source - the Soul at rest
P.S - Just to clarify so people dont think I am decieving anyone; the book is written by founder of Ahmadiyya Muslim Community.