As I cocked a brand new .30mm pistol ready 2 lock & load, I had 1 beautiful vision in sight - the beautiful hair placed majestically on da tip of da barrel. I aimed, & I fired; emptying 14 rounds of italian cartridges & each shot brought me closer 2 an Xhilarated feeling of anger & desire. The sound of each round echoing far across da blue river was Xhilirating. A storm ripped thru my brain & everything around me had fear. All I did was reload.
I was on a hunting trip on my recent trip 2 pak. My fellow hunter wanted me 2 test his new pistol. I didnt hesitate & fired, gushing out all my anger & hatred that is boiling deep inside me, even at this very moment I type. In dubai, I dont have access 2 any guns, Xcept at a local shooting club where I occasionally visit 2 practice skeet shooting with a 12 gauge.
What made me write this is a feeling I alwayz try 2 Xpress in a style which will hurt me 1 day bad. What do u guppies do when u have a lot of anger & hatred buried deep inside waiting 2 Xplode…?
I talk to myself in an audible low tone. Often speaking out what it is I am upset about. Carrying out a conversation that I may have with someone I am upset with, etc. Sounds silly, but it helps more than I had ever imagined it would. Great therapy for me.
I'm usually not angry. If I do get angry, I do something alone, like go riding trials very agressively, pretty much work out my emotions. Or go to some secluded place and sit for a while or jog around.
I yell at others .............joking. Usually it is very hard for some one to make me angry. When i am angry, i usually try to be alone and i stop talking to others. If the reason is still in my mind which made me angry, i try to get my self involve in something important or busy. It usually helps me.