And also what's bothering me is this, one of my friends (Dutch) had left his girlfriend (also Dutch) for someone he had met online and he was already involved with that other person while he was still together with my friend and she didn't even know! I was friends with both of them. I had left my own coushusband again at that time and was staying with my own parents. I wanted to divorce him. But then after a while my Dutch friend started to insinuate that I was the person her boyfriend was involved with while he was with her and leaving her for! She said it was very strange that at the same time when I had left my husband, then months later, her boyfriend left her. She insinuated first that I was his new girlfriend, then she said it clearly years later. That hurt me a lot! Especially because I had taken her side when she had told me he had left her for someone else. It's very hurtfull. She didn't know it was the second time I had left my own ex-husband, she didn't know everything going on in my family. But still, why blame me?! What kind of a friend is that? We're still in touch, but it keeps bothering me how she accused me. So now I did something else to give her full proof that I'm not the person her former boyfriend was involved with, I tried to contact him to proove it to her. I didn't tell him that, I only told him I"d like to have contact to understand why he had someone else without telling his girlfriend first. I want to know the reasons he did that. But especially, the first reason, is to have contact with him so my friend knows for sure it really wasn't me.
Then I was upset with myself for being so hurt because of false accusations. It's just so hurtful to be accused of things I didn't even do. So if I just let people notice now that the accusations don't hurt me, will they stop? And is it really a better idea to contact friends former cheating boyfriend so I can proove to her that it really wasn't me who he was cheating her with? As if I didn't have enough problems at home and trying to go back to school to get my diploma and juggling all that to raise my kids, bringing them to daycare centre on time, then taking them home, being busy with them and trying not to get depressed because of the family problems involving my request for divorce. How could she accuse me? She hurt me a lot. Am I too sensitive? It just hurts me a lot! I even stopped seeing people who accused me of things I didn't even do or who believed those accusations, that much hurt was I. Now I"m seeing people again, who hurt me less. Why do I let false accusations have so much influence on my life? It just hurts me a lot.