Re: Beautiful Feeling…
Wish you good luck in being a better muslim, Munni. I am trying but I have a long long way to go. We (Pakistanis) are so behind and then we complain about our problems and lack of peace. We are living in a dark time 'cause we dont know what ‘Islam’ is. We dont know the basic things but claim that we know everything.
Trust me, I have personally experienced that when I have some issues disturbing me mentally and if I somehow manage to make myself pray during those times, the next day or in the coming days, although I see that the problem is still there but it does not bother me AT ALL. It doesnt LOOK like a problem. It feels like an exciting challenge and does not worry me AT ALL. And in some cases, I have perosnally seen the problem getting ‘dissolved’ in the air. And I keep wondering where it disappeared. Just like it never existed. I have seen it happening. I look around me and I find myself in the most peaceful surroundings.
Do you know why you havent been able to overcome your depression? bcz you find it ‘hard to wanna do something.’ I often try to fight that feeling too. When I somehow manage to fight that feeling of ‘not wanting to do anything’ and find strength to get up, make wudhu and pray and cry in front of God, talk to Him. I swear that’s the most beautiful feeling. Then you know you have the strongest existance of all who is there for you, listening to you and how you feel and what you want and what’s bothering you. And when you have the total belief that it is gonna be taken care of as it if God you have consulted and no doctor, no psychiatrist, no dad, no mom, no other humanbeing.
And something the same girl told me about ‘purposely’ missing a prayer which Im forgetting but it really scared me. I said to myself, "No I am much better than that. I CANT purposely miss my prayers. And missing these 2, 4, 4, 3, 4 raka’at prayers? Why? Are we not capable of even THAT???