I can understand every second of your life dear, I have gone through the same situation for 18 months… It was very difficult for me to spend my life without him… You have mashAllah a very good susraal, mine was just ok- few people changed after he left, too… I had to cope up with the situations, I used to cry over nights in my room, leaving no one know about what I am going through!! But MashAllah now I am here with my Hubby- we laugh, we fight, we argue and we enjoy best times together…but he is my World! my precious asset- :wub: