At my breaking point, I hate my mother.

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Re: At my breaking point, I hate my mother.

@safinaz

I think one reason for my breaking point is that all my life, I have felt that God hates me and that he’s displeased with me because of how things have been with my mother. If she’s so unhappy with me, why would God listen to my prayers or anything. That’s why now I don’t even pray or make dua wholeheartedly because I feel as if it will never be accepted.

Peace sister safinaz

This shows that you have a sound understanding of the importance of the mother … In the Sight of Allah that is …

However, this disheartening feeling comes from Shaitan … He tries to convince people that they are so far gone from forgiveness that any prayer or du’a is pointless and as a result he achieves convincing people to even stop 'ibadah … Please note that Allah (SWT) is Ghafoor-u-Raheem … He can forgive anything because He is needless … However, us people are not needless you need your mother’s du’as to get peace of mind and she needs her daughters love and respect …

I suggest if you have the courage to do this … My sister in Islam, is to say the part above that I put in bold of your own words to your mother …

“Mum I think that I can pray and pray, but why would God listen to my prayers if you are so upset with me?”

It will take time so perhaps it is not a good idea to hope for a sudden miracle, but you can teach your mother through your patience with her to forgive you … But you need to remind her … By saying “mum forgive me” really upon saying this each time in your heart you are learning to forgive her … God Speed … Make that happen our du’as are with you!