Ok call me sad… (No don’t!) But I am at what I can only say a late quarter life crisis.
I am at a very weird stage in my life - I have this crazy tendency to run off from situations that I cannot control or when I get too stressed.
So this happened recently in a Job. I started a while back, I thought things were going well - and then my boss said thats it we don’t have time to train you - sorry to hire you and waste your time.
Major blow.
At a time when I sorta wanted marry this guy - parents like no. Naturally its affecting me - my work life, and sleep life and well… life. They have now agreed to meet this guy. I did jump for joy - but they I feel are playing mind tactics. Well or so it seems. And I feel responsible that I should marry who my parents want - as his dad died, he has support a family of 10, no one in his family seems to be doing anything responsible - aka a decent job or getting out pakistan working somewhere with better prospects (come on everyone is doing it - I mean for those who are not educated/or cannot start up businesses in that country, etc)
So here I am in the blessed month of Ramadan. Inbetween work, I am actively looking. It is a blessing cos I get pray properly and fast and have little cat naps.
But sometimes you feel lost. I know theres a billion people (maybe more) in a worse of situation than me.
hang in there hun.. you have a lot on your plate right now :(... this is a blessed month and pray to Allah and Insallah Allah will listen to our prayers!
Once I was in a fix back home in Pakistan. Me and my business partner were going somewhere and he showed me this sentence written on the back of a truck " aur yeh waqt bhee guzar jai ga"
That put a smile on my roni shakal at that time.
So
This is a very blessed month and you are very lucky to have the time to do proper ibadat, i have been through the bleak times ur talking about so can sympathise but as everyone above said, u will get through this time InshaAllah and although prospects look dark there is light at the end of the tunnell, trust in Allah SWT he has a plan for all of us :)
When i was going through my dark stage i lost hope in all of humanity apart from Allah SWT, i placed all my trust in him and PinkOrchids today i feel im blessed with things that i could not even in my wildest dreams have imagined, he has given me more than i asked for