Just move on, OP. You need a rishta but it doesn’t necessarily have to be him. It could be someone that treats you better. There’s just so much baggage in this relationship. You still haven’t fully moved past the pain he caused you. You and him end up exploding at each other. How many times do you need to ask us what you should do when the general consensus has been to forget him and move on? Maybe you keep asking because you’re hoping we’ll tell you want to hear. It doesn’t look as though seeking advice on here has helped you reach a conclusion. So, why don’t you try istikhara and talking to your family about him instead. I feel that would make things clearer for you.
