omg this is exactly how I felt! I also went for a wedding. Although I did try, theres a limit to how much you can because everybody knows each other and us youngsters are just like whats going on. I preferred to just sit there and listen to everybody talk and occasionaly add stuff in, but they would always laugh and say you have too much if an English accent on your Urdu or that you don’t know what your talking about your british. Its like even when I was trying they kept on constantly saying that so in the end I just did not bother. I cried a lot during the 1st week but allahamdulillah I got used to in the end. Urgh the thing about people ogling at you also got on my last nerve. That was the most cringiest and awkward moment ive ever had to endure. Even now when I think of it I cringe so bad! my male cousins and other males from the village checked me out constantly as if thy had xray vision (that is nasty) and the woman also. Whilst I identify that it is the culture over there to do that I simply could not become comfortable with this fact. But yes I did get used to it in the end.