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April 2006
A woman’s Cry!**
"I LOVE U"after all these years thats what he said!!!But i wanted more… I wanted more than these 3 words. i wanted him to hug me,kiss me & 2 say that he wanted me and that he willl be there 4ever and that he will love me forever and That it’s not just a fantasy and that it is sumthin’, he always wanted!
I just wanted to hear him utter these words. so that i can live with this fantasy forever.
A wake up CaLL!
Wake Up Girl WAke UP!!! There is no such thing as “A Prince charming.” You have been living in a fantasy my child.You have been dreaming all these years. Do you not remember that dreams never come true??? why do you dream then? i cannot see you like this my child. I cannot see you!!You know i love you thats why i want you to open your eyes so that the world will not leave you behind and these rotten people will not hurt you anymore!
Request to God!
oh please God, can u send her Real Prince really quick, where ever he is tell him that she needs him the most..because she has been crying alot..she doesnot talk to me..she doesnot talk to anyone..i cannot even console her…My sympathies and my support is not what she wants. SHe wants him, God…She wants him!!!
Shattered Dreams
May be he’s not what i wanted..May be he’s not that good..May be he’s not a Prince… MAy be he is..he’s just another ordinary guy. But Now that i Love him nothing more matters…
Why didn’t u stop me God? oh why did i fall for him??? Oh why?
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i cant share him God..i cant…I will die and You know that..
Being “Hot” is not enough. i wanted him to be mine..JUSt mineeeeeeee..My soul belongs to him now..My love is true..
I don’t like playing games.I DONT!!! It makes me sick. I wish he never had any PAST..it hurts to even dream of a man who was once pure but not anymore. I dont know where she has left her stains, I dont now where she has touched him.. May be her stains are all over his Body!..Only thinking of it makes me sick,GOD!
Why wasn’t i the first and the only ONE? I wanted to feel his soul, and the tenderness of his heart, and the warmth of his lips…
WHat a WOMEN WANTS!!!
He asked me “Isn’t that what you wanted???”(his love)..
Noooooooooo, thats not all what i wanted.
YOu know what i wanted???i wanted to live a peaceful life with you in a small place, where our memories would always stay alive. Where one can smell the essence of our love in every corner of our house and Where every night i would wait for you to come home and have dinner with me! only me! and with no 3rd person to even bother us, except for the candles that would enlighten our love even more. Yes those CAndles, would make you realize the number of nights i have spent waiting for u…Thats not all ..i wanted more..i wanted your support.. I WAnTED YOUUUUUUUUUU..I wanted you to walk with me, H0lding my hands through the ups and downs of my life, my good times and bad times..So that we can make memories and You know what, just you being there MATTERS! do you understand ??it matters!!!.. It would make my each and every single moment “special” and “worth living.”
i wanted more…i wanted more than His so called LOVE!..i cant f0rgive him..nor can i forgive myself for loving him..for even knowing him..for even giving him a chance…
WHy did you say that you loved me, when you dont even know what love means?
You said you loved my smile with these pretty dimples ? why did you say that, when all you gave me was nothing but tears?
You said i was your true love?Why did you say this when you had a pasT?( if i was yr true love..what was she..your fake love?)
** You said You loved my sparkling dangling eyes..because they would speak for me???Did not my eyes tell you What i wanted?..Yes now my eyes are sparkling..they are sparkling with tears!!!**
You said you would do as i say..Then listen to me for once..I want you to go back! Go back to her…
I would not let anyone fool me now!not even later..neverr everrr!..Nor will i allow them to gamble with words, just like the way you did!
Go backkkkk ..Go backk..Go back to your FIRst love..Go back to the girl Who knocked at your door before i did..Go back to her!..Because she has the right and only she does..And you be a good boy now…Praise her everytime of what you like about her! because thats what a girl wants..She wnats to feel comfortable with you..And BE truthful to her.Tell her to forgive YOU! and This time speak with your heart please. SHe has been crying for years now!..she has suffered enough! You have hurt her!!!Appologise to her..She is not a toy..She has a heart too.. Not JUst play with her this time, bUT try to change your perspective and look at her from a different perspective..Give a close look to her inner beauty..and look at how much she loves you!!Then you will understand the true meaning of love..
**Tera saath ho ye zaroori tou nahi,
Phir bhi rabse teri iltajah bhi hai,
Mohabbat karon dobara ye lazmi tou nahi,
Kyon k aaj ulfat bhi mujhay tumhise hai
Tujhay saza don ye sahi tou nahi,
Deiti saza tujhay hon,milti mujhay bhi hai,
Teri saza, mari saza bhi hai.
Tum mari mohabat k qabil tou nahi,
Magar kiya karein mohabbat hai tumse
Aur tumsay shikayat bhi hai.
Her baat kehna zaroori tou nahi,
in ankhon ko parh laynay ki adat SHAYAd
Mari tarah tumhay bhi hai.
Keh diya humne k humay teri zaroorat tou nahi,
Sach tou hai k her pal teri zaroorat bhi hai.
Kehta hai yaad mainay ussay kabhi kiya nahi,
maloom nahi usay k itnay saal ye dil uskay liye
na sirf tardpa, khoob roya bhi hai ...**Sochtay they mar jayain gaye,bin tere akailay main,
Magar aaj bhi zinda hain, Na jaanay kis umeed main.
