I read everything you wrote. I used to think you were a girl lol.
Khair, I think its time for you to move on brotha. If she is happy, then let it be. You cannot break someone’s house just to build yours. If this is how Allah willed, then let it be and move on in your life. You might think that you love her more but it may be due to the fact that you never got to marry her (if I understood correctly from your post). This is why Islam tells you to keep your limits and if you do happen to like someone, then marry them. If that is not possible, then move on. This so-called “friendship” causes nothing but problems afterwards.