Re: (8) welcome to my lifee
Don't feel bad .... we all gone through similar situations and have asked ourselves the same depressing questions ... this is part of life, its about discovery, making mistakes and hopefully learning new things.
I may have a synical view; I see college/school as a way to learn new skills to make $$. Once you have the $$ you can enjoy other things such as fashion or whatever else. Before you decide to go into fashion, political science or whatever else, ask yourself what is the return on investment? After investing 4 or 5 years of college tuition, personal time, family sacrifices, etc. what will you get in return.
What you lack is personal motivation? You are not able to motivate yourself and in order to succeed in this competitive world you need to be able to motivate yourself even when there is negativity around you. If you have the right motivation I am certain that you can succeed in any field you want to. Ask yourself, why you are not motivated enough??