Just because I have read chain for posts from you. And I really want to give you perspective on things.
My lowest points were.
1-I was on anti-depressant for a whole year, slept 16 hrs a day. Lost all muscle mass.
After a first month of being on pills I I started waiting for death. That did not happen.
And because I did not speak to any one in my house about my condition. I suffered more.
how I go out:: I GOT BORED!!! I said what the Fuk. flushed down all the pills.
It was hell at the start giving them up,First I counted mins every day, then counted hrs.
Finally work out and little dating 
triggered right hormones at right places. And life became beautiful.
2- for one whole year I smoked drugs 3 times a day. I was having problem with adjusting severely changed realities in my life and family :hinna:
How did I get out::
Agian I said to my self what the Fuk… and stop doing it and STARTED doing what I loved.
And look at me now 
I am plain awesome
Please don’t quote.