I've been a loser at school until I was 16 and joined a different school with kids older than me. So I know exactly how you feel.
Nowadays, I'm not a loser anymore. Many people suddenly want to be my friend again since 2007, strange. I don't want people anymore, I'm just not used to them now. Living alone since 2004 was nice and there is something about begin lonely. I hope you find a nice person like you so you won't be lonely anymore. I've noticed, that I thrive better when I'm lonely.
Since 2004 I started to learn more things which I've always wanted to. You see, while I had friends, I've had many friends between 2001-2004, I was often with them, helping them, doing chores for them, listening to them, talking to them, shopping with them, watching movies with them, baby sitting their children for them, etc. Because of being with friends, I didn't learn the things I always planned to learn one day, or read books I always wanted to read, etc. Since I'm alone, I've been writing stories, learning so many new things, reading many books again, etc. So for me, it's better to be alone.
I think some of you are right, why am I still posting anything on internet?
If I want to be alone, I should do it right. That means also no more talks on internet. I enjoyed being here, I've been here from 2003.
This is goodbye to all the people here who were nice to me and also to the ones who weren't. They were all important and special experiences for me. :)
omg yea i know what you mean.
In 2001 I had this best friend and she was the best, we talked to together, read books together, shopped together, planned days out together, learned from each other and new things in life together, it was such a wonderful experience.
However in July 2003 she died, she got run over by a bicycle and fell into the river and drowned.
Ever since 2003 I struggled to find new friends.
In March 2005 I found a new friend, I don't know if you'll believe me, but I can see JINN. and my new friend was a jinn! only I can see it. We fell out in December 2005 cause I found out it was stealing my make up from me, and we got into an argument. But by Jan 2006 we made up again and are still best friends forever to this day!
I can do black magic also the jinn taught me and it can do circus tricks, I taught it! ;) And the jinn does wotever I ask it to do. I can even send him to visit you, shall I??? :D:D:):):):)