So I took it that when you were young you used to play with a goat then you fell in love with her. Now that she is gone you have become pather dil. Hell man it happened to me once, but not in young age (not that I am old now actually 64 years younger) but at rather mature age. And it was not a bakri but it was a cow. In urdu you call it bhains. Any way I don’t want to talk about it. 