Re: Is this time to go home?
That's bull crap bro, people like you are dhobi ke kuttay - na ghar ke na ghaat ke. I was the biggest wanna be myself but I've become wiser. I didn't practice Islam, I use to drink, eat bacon, all my mates were goray because I think I must have felt intimidated by Paki scallies (too badd) to hang around with them and I looked down on FOBs, I had a broad accent, I dressed like goray (not all black prada/rockport gear like pakis), I didn't like my mum picking me up but I liked it when my dad picked me up from work/mates house because he looks Caucasian and she's brown... I rejected everything that was Asian (even though inside it was beckoning me) because I wanted to be accepted but even then I was always made to feel different because of my brown, Paki, Muslim, Asian background. I'm glad they showed their true colors, it made me closer to who I am and I pray and don't do haraam anymore.
I can't trust them, Muslim in east Europe completely assimilated into dominant Christian society and even Muslim women intermarried with the Christians, they didn't even know the Kalma but even they didn't escape the wrath of their Christian neighbours who they thought were their friends and relatives when goverment turned against them because of their Arabic surnames and Muslim heritage, who are we to feel secure we;ve hardly been in this country?
You can try assimilating as much as you want but you'll never be one of them, once I was having an argument with this Brit nationalist chick and she thought all Pakis should go back home so I told her nobody has monopolay over being British as Britian is racially heterogeneous anyway, it's always been a mixture of different people you know with all them different Vikings, Celts, Normans and all that settling in Britian yrs ago and you know whta she says? "They were all of the white race, just different tribes, you Pakis are brown, Britian is a country for white people." They'll accept people of European origin, despite being secular they'll be welcoming of anyone from a Chrsitian culture like Latinos and Blacks, they don't mind Chinese type people but (south) Asians and especially Muslim have no chance. My mate who is of german origin, his grandfather could have been a Nazi killing Brits in the war whilst my forefathers could have served the crown and fought for Britian all over the world from against the Africans to against the Portugese (because we Pathans are good fighters) but I'll never be considered British because my skin is tanned and my hair and eyes dark yet that guy of Nazi descent will be considered as British as they come..
So don't kid yourself dude, you're not a gora (Italian, Irish, German or Scott) so you'll never be American or British in their eyes.