Re: Is this time to go home?
Smootie yar, there is nothing wrong with calling Pakistan your home if that's how you feel about it. Its very natural. You can't forcefully love someone/something just like you can't forcefully dislike something.
To give you an example, I felt a lot more sorrow when Hurricane Katrina hit the gulf coast as appose to seeing the destruction of 9/11. Mainly because having lived in the gulf coast for many years, it felt like my past home was being ruined. I had driven around the place, I have watched games in the super dome. The people, the places looked familiar and so it hurt. In comparison 9/11 seemed like a spectacular yet horrible movie experience. Same was the case with Pakistan's earthquake vs. Indian/Sri Lankan/Indonesian tsunami. There was a common humanity connection but Pakistani earthquake felt like a heart ache.
The point I was making was that I know Pakistanis who are miserable living in the west, utterly bitter about it, and its not good for their own physical and mental health to be living in exile. Its just not worth it.