heart broken

For a start your not married to her, you can’t expect to be able to exercise certain Islamic (as you interpret**) rights as a husband, especially when you don’t seem to be able to fulfil basic Islamic responsibilities of a husband.

To be honest I think you should stay away from all women until you can be totally honest and upfront with them.

** I do know a man can have 4 wifes, but the wives in question have right to know that, along with a whole range of other rights you don't seem to be fulfilling either!