Re: depressed 
I’m with rukhsarbibi.
Sometimes we make things bigger than they actually are.
Cut things down to size…especially the ex. You’ll feel a whole lot better when you let people know that you are in control of your life and not going to react to the stimulation that they provide.
And finally…keep coming to this site to share. If you can, read other threads where people are looking for advice…it’ll take your mind away from your own issues…even if it is only for a little while.
Hang in there.