Baby Blues

hey nik... i have no experience of babies but i m freakin out since 1 yr thinkin abt it.... i mean i am a v carefree, irresponsible girl... so far my life is cool with my hubby also carefree and we lead a life where we do whatever we like but I dun think i m maternal... i mean i dun think i will b the best mom.. alot of women of today would know how i feel cus they r independent, working and their priorities have changed... not that i dun want kid, i do but i think i wudnt do justice... i dunno why i m ranting here... but i wanted to share this.. imagine my blues when i m preg and when i HAVE a baby! SOB SOB ..... :(
btw the pic in ur avatar... is it u???