So things just got to me after a while and I spontaneously burst into tears today. A couple minutes after, my mom walks in through the door to give me some fruit and she saw me before I could completely wipe away my tears. Now, I can not remember the last time I cried in front of my mother or anyone actually. My outward persona is nonchalant so after seeing me like that, she just becomes completely quite. I tried to pretend everything was normal, she asks me what's wrong and I say oh nothing. She lingers for a moment and then quickly shuts the door and leaves. Lol because she didn't know how to handle such behavior from me. Later, when I went downstairs and I offered to do something for her, she is like "oh no nooo, it's all good." That is so unlike her. Lmao, it cracked me up. It's been too long that I was in a natural peaceful place. I crave complete silence but it is impossible where I live. Probably that is why I can't handle my stress very well atm.